Helplessness, you were uninvited, you were dead.

Sly mistress, you come again from depth shadows,

crawling to take your place at the dance.

I thought I had killed you,

Hearing the echo of your last breath,

fading away.

Endlessness, out of the gray dust you emerge,

I betray my eyes and invite you for a dance.

Alone in the darkness we are, staring face to face.

And you rip my freedom, tear my dreams away.

I take what’s left from my dying dreams,

and walk along into your grace.

Hopelessness, who brought you here?

You were never invited.

You, who embrace me and blow me to the edge,

you, who push me into the harsh seas,

throw me in poisonous ivy leaves,

and drown me in the midnight tide.

Helplessness, I pull myself out of your claws,

drag myself out, breathless, looking at the starless sky,

And I know.

I take you. I turn you into a poem. I kill you again.